It wasn’t a teacup that shattered, it was the entire shelf.
I saw it breaking in slow motion and I ignored it. The shards flew inwards with the speed of arrows shooting into a void. I felt them as they entered me. They were more aware of me than you.
I was a ravaged animal, I waited until you were done with me so I could get up and clean myself from you. When you took too long I just helped in the slashing for the sake of my dignity which had fleed the scene.
My soul intervened and explained what was happening. It told me he is forever banned from entering any sacred space within. It said love is not possible with this individual. It kept repeating variations of the word “rejected.”
He cannot see you. He cannot see you. He does not see. He won’t see.
This cannot be fixed. And as I sought after wisdom, a creature flashed before my eyes and advised “free yourself.”
The creature showed me no boundaries existed between me and It. It showed me intelligence and interconnectedness.

You are not evil but I do not believe you feel feelings. Which prevents you from being fully human before my eyes. You do not have the full picture of the human experience, you have no space for me in your world, love was kept out.

I followed the creature’s advise and freed myself. I let love in.