I have been bleeding out emotionally for the past two days. I feel betrayed and abandoned somewhere foreign, cold and serious.

I need a ride home.

I don’t know how to get home from here.

Beauty died out like an old phone’s battery. Beauty never mattered.

You flaunt beauty, but who flaunts the soul? Who flaunts love? Who flaunts the errie? The ghostly?

I belong to an infinite space without name, deeply connected to it all.

I am tired of flesh, of needs, of allergies.

I am tired of the hundreds of eyes, staring, of feet dragged and aching as they rush and slow down.

I am aching.
Aching, dear reader.

I want, I want… His body perhaps I confused with my temple. His long legs pillars. He looked like a strong foundation.

You don’t fully understand, dear reader
How much I ache for companionship.

The lack of it makes me want to end civilization.

My heart is wailing in agony.

It does not understand.

Where is my kind?

Where can I attach myself?

Whenever did I ask to become human?

I see his flame, I see the gorgeousness of a man. My hand burns as I touch it. I see more than he thinks and more than I know.

What will it be?

Am I the one that sees potential? Am I the only one that sees?

……

I am going mad here… Mad Hatter.

Take me back and absorb me into the void. That is the plea of an exhausted Earthling. Love or celestial dissolve.